never say never

I am officially obsessed.

and me and my mom both have bieber fever..

that is all. goodnight:)

feelings....

Do you want to know the worst feeling ever..or at least one of the worst feelings of mine that i hate. 

feeling UNEASY. feeling like there is something in your mind that isn't quite resolved or something that just makes you "uneasy" 

Or here's a question. Why do we become so insecure? Or why do we take texts the wrong way sometimes?

for example: if i were to text someone "hey" and they were to text me "hi", to me that would make me feel like they don't want to talk to me. Is it just me? 

Like this world is crazy now with how we connect with each other. Half the time we connect through text messaging or Facebook. Its like a way to say what we really wanna say if there's an issue without having the guts to pick up the phone or say what the issue is in person.

Another feeling that bothers me a lot is FRUSTRATION, when you are just so frustrated with the person or the situation and you just feel so frustrated until your mind forgets about it or it gets resolved. whatever "it" may be. 

Sometimes feelings just boggle my mind. there are soooo many different types of feelings that we FEEL everyday. Its actually very intense. Sometimes we have feelings that we wish we didn't have to explore, and sometimes we have feelings that we love to experience.

No wonder we have a bed time. by the time 11pm comes around our bodies are so zonked from us throwing out these feelings everywhere, whether they are good or bad. 

What am I feeling right now? Exhaustion and happiness. 

Had an amazing night tonight with some friends and my boyfriend. Which by the way I love him more and more everyday.

That's one feeling I can never get sick of or exhausted from, LOVE. 

That is all, Goodnight:)

why oh whyyyy

it is 4:02 am, and i am still wide awake.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

that is all goodnight. (i wish)

a very happy post

Sooo as everyone already knows, I have been really  blah about business school, and that i decided not to go back as I didn't like it one bit. I've wanted to pursue one of my big job dreams and become a wedding planner.

and...

I am going to do just that:)
Tonight me and the mother talked and found an amazing oppurtunity in London, Ontario In June.
So London here I come:)

I am very excited and I cannot wait to take the course:)

I am so thankful that my family is behind me with this amazing oppurtunity and I am so happy that I am finally going to be doing something that I love to do:)

thank you, thank you, thank you

That is all, goodnight:)

sisterly love

Okay so. As i am watcvhing the baby sitters club (ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES OF MY CHILDHOOD) It made me think of all the memories I have with my sister.

So here you have it a little sisterly mashup.

1) Babysitters club. We watched it every day twice a day in my grandparents bed. we were obsessed.

2) When me and Amanda went with my mom to the grocery store, me and Amanda would ask my mom what was next on the list and we would race to see who could find it the fastest. (It was always a competition between me and my sister. ALWAYS)

3) In grade 3 I believe (this is gonna get embarrassing) My mom took me for a haircut and decided to give me a mushroom cut... yes that's right.. My hair was way above my ears and the back of my hair was like shaved. ANYWAY. When I went to school, all of my sisters guy friends were making fun of me, and my sister came to the rescue at recess time.

4) In grade 6 I did a speech about my sister and made it to the finals of my class, but then Dan Z. beat me.

5) This isn't a very good memory its embarrassing for me once again. But Amanda used to tickle me until I peed my pants. (More than once)

6) This girl was really mean to me in SK and so my sister decided to call her house and leave an awful message on her answer machine and her mom listened to it and the next day at school the principle took me out of my classroom. 

7) When I got made fun of hardcore in junior high my sister was always there protecting me. 

8) When my sister was in grade 8 she had a dance party in our basement with all her friends and boys were allowed to come over. I was sent to a friends house so i wouldn't be a "pest" But when I came home I stood outside and looked through the downstairs window and watched my sister with this boy slow dancing when the music wasn't even playing and they kissed and then I started making noises and most likely ruined her night:)

9) In our house in Dryden we had a concrete wall in our basement where we would use chalk and write a whole bunch of stuff on the wall and then when our friends came over we would get them to write their names on it. But then when we moved out, Apparently when people were looking at our house the chalk wall was an issue. oooops. kids will be kids.

10) Me and my sister would make dances up with the songs by the Spice Girls:)

11) When my friend passed away, My sister hugged me until I stopped crying. 

12) My cousins had this wooden tree house in the back yard and we were all playing on it and Amanda fell off the tree and landed on the wooden sand box.... 

13) At camp we were quading and Amanda was on her dirt bike and Sean took us through this huuuuuge mud puddle and Amanda wiped out and got her new white shorts filthy. (or white shirt i cant remember)

the list can go on and on.

Love you Amanda.:)

That is all, good day:)

yay for demi!

Demi is out of rehab!!!I am so happy:) I anm glad she is healthy and I hope all is well for her:)

that is alll, goodnight:)

fgadshfsdghfadghafdf

fdagshfdghafdghaafddfas

I need A job.

gdhfgsgfshdgfhgsgfhjdfsgf

that is all, goodnight.